Are you trying to “get there”?1

Transformation

Where to begin?

Why am I even here?

Haven’t I figured this out by now?

Ten years

Ten years, a battlefield, as I grapple with this thing called life

– Lows

– Highs

– Hurt

– Disappointment

Watching:

The sullen teenage, who doesn’t want to be here

The frightened child, terrified of getting it wrong

The wise woman, grounded and serene

The lost little girl, who simply hasn’t a clue

All the while searching

Desperately trying to figure it all out

Figure out why I’m here

So then I can take my “rightful” place on earth

I stop

I listen

I feel

I see

I taste

I touch

I see the absurdity of it all

The unnecessary hardship

It’s time

Time to let it all float away

Time to soar

Time to fly

Life’s not about figuring it out

Or even seeing the big picture

It’s about living

Living Now

And allowing chapter 3 to unfold